I squinted at the piercing light. It rested directly on my journal in the dark, cool night. I was in the car waiting for my big brother's District Championship soccer game to start. But I couldn't forget about my new website i made that day.
"So this is what it's like having social media." I thought nervously.
I've never had a Facebook or instagram or pinterest(unlike every other teenager I know). i knew i would have to gear up the self-control to stop scrolling through everyone's pictures and "exciting" updates. i couldn't be consumed by my consumerism.
Ringing in my ears, Elizabeth Fountain's words left a mark on my heart as if they echoed loudly off of cave walls,
" Don't stop writing, Carolyn.
It's a gift.
Don't take it for granted."
The game was close to starting. The boys were pumped, running for every ball in practice, making crisp passes right to their teammates' feet. They wanted to play their best. They wanted to make their mark.
I've noticed I have been changing…slowly but surely.
My devotion time just kept dropping until I wouldn't spend time with God for a whole week, even months. Too much other stuff has distracted me-my sports, my music, my look, my reputation, my time with friends. I realized that if I didn't do something about it, the constant piling of unbearable burdens would eventually cripple me.
So, I tried to ask hopefully,
"God, please line up my desires with yours."
I'm such a perfectionist. Whenever I don't do something right, I give up on myself. I give up on what I've been given. I give up on God.
But, I don't want to wait to change. There is simply no time for that. Change is now.
Stepping out of my own, little self- world, i am being led byGod to a world much bigger.
Walking not by sight, but by Faith. ~2 Corinthians. 5:7
"So this is what it's like having social media." I thought nervously.
I've never had a Facebook or instagram or pinterest(unlike every other teenager I know). i knew i would have to gear up the self-control to stop scrolling through everyone's pictures and "exciting" updates. i couldn't be consumed by my consumerism.
Ringing in my ears, Elizabeth Fountain's words left a mark on my heart as if they echoed loudly off of cave walls,
" Don't stop writing, Carolyn.
It's a gift.
Don't take it for granted."
The game was close to starting. The boys were pumped, running for every ball in practice, making crisp passes right to their teammates' feet. They wanted to play their best. They wanted to make their mark.
I've noticed I have been changing…slowly but surely.
My devotion time just kept dropping until I wouldn't spend time with God for a whole week, even months. Too much other stuff has distracted me-my sports, my music, my look, my reputation, my time with friends. I realized that if I didn't do something about it, the constant piling of unbearable burdens would eventually cripple me.
So, I tried to ask hopefully,
"God, please line up my desires with yours."
I'm such a perfectionist. Whenever I don't do something right, I give up on myself. I give up on what I've been given. I give up on God.
But, I don't want to wait to change. There is simply no time for that. Change is now.
Stepping out of my own, little self- world, i am being led byGod to a world much bigger.
Walking not by sight, but by Faith. ~2 Corinthians. 5:7
God breathes,
" Be Still…
and Know….
that I AM GOD.
- Psalm 46:10
* Be Still…
Do not waver from the Faith. Do not shaken by worry, by the present, tiny troubles that is incomparable to our GOD who is bigger than ALL our circumstances, our lives.
Just. Be. Still. because He is GOD.
* Know….
God is the I AM, as written in the Scriptures:
" And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.'"
He is who He is. He does not change like we do. He is the One who has sent me to this world. He knows me more than I know myself! The question is:
Do I deserve
to know, to talk to, to be in the presence of
the I AM?
Nope. Not even close to that privilege. I don't deserve a second chance to get on track with God this year. But….
He is who He is….
A GOD of 2nd Chances,
A GOD who sent His Son to this world to die for me to take my place, to glorify himself
and would still want to have a relationship with me-
me? Seriously?! ME?!?!
I pray,
" I know You don't need me, God, but
You know that I Desperately Need YOU."
I didn't want Him when I hung Him on that cross, but He still wanted me when He rose from the grave and offered me New Life.
And so, now, instead of trying to live my life as if i was writing my own story,
I want to write it as God's story-
I mean, how can it be a good story if the real main character was not in it and …
if there is no good ending??
My GOD saved me and has given me New Life that lasts forever and ever. The story NEVER ends….
I want my life to be a mark of Christ.
That's why I am writing this blog.
I look around me and I see
failure,
to do's,
what if's
but now,
I can just close my eyes, and know it is only faith that pleases God ~ Hebrews 11:6
Be Still. and Know.
" Be Still…
and Know….
that I AM GOD.
- Psalm 46:10
* Be Still…
Do not waver from the Faith. Do not shaken by worry, by the present, tiny troubles that is incomparable to our GOD who is bigger than ALL our circumstances, our lives.
Just. Be. Still. because He is GOD.
* Know….
God is the I AM, as written in the Scriptures:
" And God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM.” And He said, “Thus you shall say to the children of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.'"
He is who He is. He does not change like we do. He is the One who has sent me to this world. He knows me more than I know myself! The question is:
Do I deserve
to know, to talk to, to be in the presence of
the I AM?
Nope. Not even close to that privilege. I don't deserve a second chance to get on track with God this year. But….
He is who He is….
A GOD of 2nd Chances,
A GOD who sent His Son to this world to die for me to take my place, to glorify himself
and would still want to have a relationship with me-
me? Seriously?! ME?!?!
I pray,
" I know You don't need me, God, but
You know that I Desperately Need YOU."
I didn't want Him when I hung Him on that cross, but He still wanted me when He rose from the grave and offered me New Life.
And so, now, instead of trying to live my life as if i was writing my own story,
I want to write it as God's story-
I mean, how can it be a good story if the real main character was not in it and …
if there is no good ending??
My GOD saved me and has given me New Life that lasts forever and ever. The story NEVER ends….
I want my life to be a mark of Christ.
That's why I am writing this blog.
I look around me and I see
failure,
to do's,
what if's
but now,
I can just close my eyes, and know it is only faith that pleases God ~ Hebrews 11:6
Be Still. and Know.